The quest to eargasm?

I feel like I may have… gone a little overboard on a lot of things. Buying headphones is certainly one of them.

In full picture:

Sony WH1000XM3, Bowers & Wilkins PX, AKG N60C, Sennheiser HD6XX (Massdrop Edition)

I don’t consider myself an audiophile or anywhere around that. Heck I could explain right now, or try to, on why I have so many… headphones. Part of it is experimenting. The thing about headphones, especially reputable ones is that the retain value so I can easily sell it back without losing much.

Sony WH1000XM3 is meant to be replacing my Bowers & Wilkins PX. These two are the ones I use at work right now and they’ve been wonderful. The Bowers & Wilkins PX certainly wins against the WH1000XM3 when it comes to acoustics…. but when it comes to bass Sony headphones just have the upperhand as the Bowers and Wilkins aren’t as bassy as I’ve had hoped for.

The AKG N60C is actually the one I use at home and it’s connected to a bluetooth transmitter that is connected to my TV. The consoles and most devices are connected to the TV using the TV input ports provided… so I basically route all that sound through a optical audio cable that plugs to the bluetooth transmitter. The AKG ones aren’t meant to outmatch anything. I just found them super cheap and quite reliable for my needs and all I wish is it had more battery life in them.

The Sennheiser HD6XX I use mostly with my Macbook Pro. I just use when I’m alone as they are open headphones, else I’d switch to the closed ones that I listed above.

In terms of quality… I’d dare say I’ve had a greater impression with the Bowers & Wilkins PX and the Sony WH1000XM3 when pitting it against the Sennheiser HD 6XX. Don’t ask me why. I just find the Sennheiser ones to be lacking something and I don’t know what.

Overall I’ll probably end up selling the Sennheiser HD 6XX if I can’t find what’s wrong with it. And part ways with the Bowers and Wilkins PX but as of late a big part of me doesn’t want to give up on the Bowers & Wilkins. I love them. They were my second headphones and I’ve found them to be incredibly delightful to use. I do have minor complains with the clamping… it’s quite… rough after a few hours, but overall I really enjoy using them.

If I ever go high-end with cans… you won’t see me do that this year for certain. I think I’m going to stay in the mid-zone for a long time. I’m also hoping to do a write-up on Sony WH1000XM3 at the end of this month.


Snappity Snap 📸

The past few days have been fun. They’ve been filled with a lot of curiosity and eagerness to learn something new. I feel like photography might be a hobby I’ll be pursuing heavily.

I find it fun… because it gives me something to do. More than just fun, it’s a series of what happens if I alter the settings to obtain a more seasoned take of the photo. On the past few days I’ve been working with two people that have been helping me get up to speed with a lot of things photography except composition.

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For now I’m just having a blast with learning more about ISO/Exposure Time/Aperture. These three elements are fairly important at least to me when it comes to all things lighting and if I don’t learn it I don’t think it would’ve made much sense buying a Nikon camera.

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I feel like the greatest challenge so far is actually having a good composition in the photo. Everything in place and working in harmony. I don’t think I will be able to master that anytime soon but as time passes, maybe.

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Either way… it’s a hobby. One I hope that stays a hobby. I think I’ve found something I can become quite passionate about. It’s really a break from all things programming. I don’t think you know how much photography means to me as a new hobby. Perhaps I’ve been burnt out to the ground with programming and need a break from it.

Nonetheless, it’s fun and keeps me busy.

Wrapping this up. Feel free to check out my Flickr and follow me.

Approaching new things

If I have to give this month a fair shake it is that I’ve been doing things the wrong way. I’ve yet to make any progress in a position that I want because quite honestly these days I’ve yet to get excited about a company or product.

Now, I don’t really want to give the opening of this log entry a very heavy start. Life doesn’t go the way you want it most of the time and I’ve learned to be okay with it as long as I don’t become complacent or a conformist.

I feel like I have been extremely spontaneous about many things this month with the start of new hobby. Like anything, it takes a lot of practice and a lot of trial and error to get good at it. Photography isn’t exactly a passion of mine. Just an interest that I hope to nourish over the following years.

It’s also something that I’ve been meaning to start. I’ve been with computers for so many years that the thought of doing more outdoor activities was never in the equation. Now, these days I want to take control of my life and finally enjoy myself. Go out, travel the world, etc.

A huge part of me doesn’t want to just stay still… I just can’t do it anymore.

I can only hope that everything goes well. Not just on this new hobby but everything I’m planning to do.

Stealing back what anxiety has taken

I think it’s time for a little talk. I wouldn’t know where to begin. I just know that if I don’t talk about it, eventually, my anxiety will keep stealing things from me. 

I go by many names and so do many when it comes to the internet. I’ve sailed the interwebs, and have interacted with many people around it. Yet, I’ve never, ever made contact with any of the people I’ve met in real life. It breaks me as a person, because I’ve found a lot of amazing people out there. It sinks me to despair, but it’s all a mental fluff that… well, thing about mental stuff is that it keeps you down, on a short leash for many, many years. 

I never bothered to treat my condition, whatever it is, because I can’t self-diagnose myself and say I have “social anxiety”. The more I read though, it feels like it is what I have. Yet, I’m no professional. 

So I do suffer, and perhaps I’ve given my back to people I didn’t want to do that to. Sometimes the amount of anxiety breaks me, but once I take control as I have done this year, I push back and talk myself out of it. 

And you know, thinking about it… I was never good with people. Sometimes I wondered why they were getting so riled up about. It felt a tad… silly that they would get mad about things. But… I do get mad about things and chalk it up to just… human things. I think, not having that emotional development thwarted any possible growth. Then again, I wasn’t good with conflict either. Most of the time it was just easy to not deal with the emotion, and remain stoic as possible and say you don’t care. 

Not caring is the go-to action for many. Sometimes, deservedly so. You don’t want any extra baggage to process, and perhaps the person gone through a lot already. There’s always a why on the not caring subject no matter if the person says there’s no reason behind it. At least that’s what I believe.

People talking about issues usually begins with a source of grief. Sadly, I’ve forgotten mine. There’s only anxiety, it was the only thing that ever was in my life, became an extension of me. I’d like to get rid of that extension… live life in a healthier manner than desperately scanning a whole area of strangers and calculating possible routes to avoid them. Such a metal gear thing to do. 

I’d like to believe that everyone goes through a personal hell. I’ve learned to never compare my issues to someone whether the person is on the deep end, or faring better than me. It doesn’t take me joy saying, “that’s your issue? worrying about [x] thing? pfft I’ve had it harder”, it always came off as a prick thing to say, undermining the person and the issue with little to no respect to the individual going through it. So, whenever someone comes to me with their issues I just lend an ear, and toss in a few guidances if I can… but usually I can’t, because the person becomes tied to what I say then and relies on the next directions, until the person finds an impossible situation and blames me for all the pointers. So, I’ll just lend an ear, perhaps an advice… but everything else has to be you. 

As for the people that spout that attitude I mentioned above. I’d rather steer clear and find positive people that isn’t on a sadistic path. I feel they’ll take you down as soon as they get bored. Instant gratification sort of thing.

Anyway, I felt like writing a post about this because it was long overdue. There are very, very few individuals that knows about this. After I click publish, so will the world and that’s okay. This is mostly for me than for them. 

I feel like I could go on writing many pages but… long-winded rambling isn’t my thing. 

What’s next in programming?

So basically I’m at my wits end. I haven’t had the time to finish my application. There are two things that have demotivated me greatly. First, the overhead of QML is too much to the point that I might have to drop it. This means I’ll have to come up with a way to build a new interface out of html/js/websockets.

I’m up for the challenge, I really am, yet I feel awful about it because I’m scrapping a large portion of the presentation for something that takes time to do. I don’t think the Qt team can optimize the QML Engine in less than two months. The original schedule was to release at March, yet due to circumstances (doing internship, loss of motivation due to the fact that I have to scrap code) I haven’t sat down to work on the app.

I think at worst this is the part I’m just banging my head against the wall since I don’t want to lose my work in vain.

I hate reformatting.

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I messed up my Windows 10 installation a month ago. Basically, the booting time was 2-3x times slower because Windows 10 decided to

  • Installing the boot loader in HDD 2
  • Installing/Configuring the BCD files in HDD 3
  • All so it can load SSD 1

It feels like it doesn’t make sense at first but it does. I tried to fix it myself but the task was pretty much daunting. I don’t know how it ended up like that.

So today, mostly because I could no longer turn an eye at it I decided to fix the issue. I went ahead backed up my three storage devices because I was also planning to use Bitlocker. Basically, once I backed up the files I unplugged the HDD cables and made the installation on the SSD.

Boot loading time has now been fixed!~

Onto Bitlocker

Now, plenty of you will probably scoff at the idea of using Bitlocker. Bitlocker works, obviously, the present problem is a trust issue with Microsoft itself. I analyzed the situation, and my conclusion was pretty much this:

It doesn’t matter.

It doesn’t, really. First of all I’m no Edward Snowden, I don’t do any questionable activity that requires me to hide my data (that doesn’t mean I don’t want to keep my privacy & protect files versus keeping questionable data). I simply don’t have that type of thing going on for me. Rather, I’m just a normal person wanting better security for my devices. Bitlocker solves that and it has ongoing support with Microsoft.

I have bigger threats to worry about. Social engineering, computer or storage drives stolen, and the list goes on. These things are a major threat that we ignore in exchange for giving in to paranoia.

If someone stoles a USB Flash drive and I have it protected by Bitlocker or any encryption software; I know I won’t worry because I was responsible enough to put a lengthy, complex password. It makes sense.

NSA, and whatever sort of evil is out there is keeping tabs on… people that are threats. I’m pretty sure that a guy that watches anime, tv series, does a lot of gaming, etc isn’t a major threat. The people around me, however, will always be a major threat as you never know if they have ulterior motives.

So yea, my reasoning may not be the greatest thing ever. I WILL keep my files encrypted and protected. I just wish that Microsoft had more guts; but also, their business would be hurt badly if they piss off Big Bro.

So do yourself a favor, evaluate your encryption options. If you have a Windows device with Pro edition, check out Bitlocker. If you want something else, there’s Veracrypt.

Updates, updates everywhere!

I’ve been watching Microsoft’s Build event, been doing so since last year and this year has been pretty darn exciting. I’ve yet to dabble into C# mostly due to most of my energy going to C++, it’s apparent that I want to work with C#, after working with Qt I feel like the reach for “easy mobile development” is a mere pipe dream. I feel… disappointed? I guess. The truth is that I’ve spent my time doing more workarounds and hack-ish solutions that actually working on my application. QML is a very, very insanely powerful language, the things it brings to the table is just awesome. Yet, the price to pay is having poor documentation on many QML elements.

Putting my feelings aside on Qt/QML for a moment. I think that I will eventually push for C#, in all honesty I just want to stay with one, maybe three languages to work with. Right now I’m just a jack of all trades, and I don’t like it that much.

Anyway! More updates

Recently I bought an SSD, a 256GB drive and it has been a huge step for me. I usually had to wait 5-9 minutes for a full boot in a normal HDD. Now it boots completely in 20-30 seconds.

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I also bought off a 970 GTX from a friend. I’m way behind games, and well, hardware in general. Once I installed it on my PC it blew my mind after playing games like Witcher 2 in pure 60FPS, Call of Duty: Ghosts was the one that called my attention the most with insane level of detail. I plan to snatch Advanced Warfare eventually too.

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Both hardware pieces have contributed greatly on my PC. The boot time is no longer a problem and Visual Studio opens in less than 10 second. Meanwhile games I had problem playing due to framerate issues are no longer an issue.

Now… there’s only one big worry I have. Software development interviews and getting hired. These are possibly my biggest challenge, as a person new to the industry I just don’t know what to expect.

Graduation around the corner

It’s been an awful week for me, sort of like a roller coaster. Like two weeks ago I got the notice that I qualify for graduation, there’s only two courses left that I have to take, that is the internship (which isn’t much of a course) and a history course. Time has passed, year after year I just wanted to get that degree already so I can finally drop my applications to U.S-based companies.

Obviously programming is a very competitive field. I already admitted myself that I will make mistakes and that “I know that I know nothing”. I hope that all the time I spent studying, tinkering, practicing with different programming languages comes to fruit. I’m thrilled and terrified, really.

I’m finally there though, these past three years have been hard, painful, agonizing even on multiple levels, ranging from family issues to profession issues. That said, it’s no use of thinking of the past, it’ll get you nowhere. Usually I just severe anything in between and carry on, for the better or worse.

Just three months more. o/

Support

Yesterday, one of the most beloved wrestlers in the WWE, Daniel Bryan, announced his retirement followed by one of the most passionate, honest goodbyes in the WWE. Daniel retired due to medical reasons he was set to the final slot yesterday in Raw followed by the WWE Network for an extended time.

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It was heartbreaking.

I love wrestling, really do. Seeing one of the wrestlers you cheered for go down for whatever reason hurts to some extent. Today though, I was reflecting on some of his words, his interactions with his family, and so many other things that made question, “what am I doing?”.

My interactions with people hasn’t been the best; I feel like most of the time I have spent has been wasted. I’ve been ungrateful. I seldom smile honestly, it’s something that I have taught myself to do over the years. I want to learn how to “act” normal, while missing the point of being yourself.

I wish I could say I tried, but this isn’t the case. I have given up so many times without trying, yet you see this guy, Daniel? He’s a fighter, he kept pushing on even with all the injuries. I didn’t. I always come around, really late, pick myself up and push once again.

Which is why it was never a matter of “trying harder” but having the desire to want it. There’s a lot of issues I want to resolve… I guess time heals old wounds. I did learn a lot yesterday, I just don’t think I can put it into words.

Back to business

So I’m finally back from my one week break. I’m somewhat disappointed with my lack of exercising these days, and much of it boils down to my sciatica interfering when I start working out. That aside, it’s been a roller coaster of emotions.

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For starters I moved my laptop to use elementaryOS, and so far I have no regrets. It’s been a delightful experience. I think the next iteration of it is around the corner (maybe?) with the next Ubuntu LTS and it’s going to be a hell of an upgrade. What I worry at the moment is the lack of updates in Spotify I hope that when Ubuntu LTS kicks in they finally update their client to use a recent version of libgcrypt.

As for my application. I’ve been pondering for a while what to do with the user interface as it’s been a very stressful task of bringing something good to the table. My fault lies within the need “to be original”… sadly original these days is incredibly hard so I’m going to focus on bringing a sane and solid experience even if the design in the end reeks of “boring”. It really stresses me as while part of me want to provide something really solid I can’t come up with a good interface without sacrificing something. Well, tomorrow I’ll be sitting once again sketching a new and predictable design.

I’m no designer though… so all I can do is just try.